Hello dead blog!
*inhales* this place smells as musty and abandoned as i thought.
Well i know i said i would never update anymore but here i am, totally bored out of my wits and needing to rant. Or ruminate, actually.
It's been almost 2 years of The One Academy life. Well, actually, it's more like taken AWAY any semblance of life i have. Everyday is monotonous, consisting of assignments and procrastinating said assignments. This term seems far more stressful than any other and i'm already dying despite it being only my second week. I don't know if the rest of you feel as i do, maybe you guys are having SO MUCH FUN in your major *snigger*
I find my life OUTSIDE of college (oh wait, didn't i just say i didn't have one? lol) to be SO much more exciting and fun. Honestly, if not for my involvement in Comic Fiesta, outings with friends, family time, INTERNET and utterly spontaneous outings with Jia Ling, i really would have no life, and become a TOA zombie (like *some* people i know)
You know... i love my class. I love them to bits. At the beginning i was extremely apprehensive about this small class full of mandarin speaking, non-KL people. But after half a year with them, i feel they're the best classmates anyone can have. It's not like i know them very well, in fact i know them even less than i know most CD055-1 students. But gads, these people are the nicest most amiable dudes you can find on the planet. Our relationship is as platonic as i like it, good enough to have a good laugh and a drink, but not too deep that DRAMA and EMO and BACKSTABBING problems happen *hinthint* in fact, i don't think they're even capable of backstabbing. They're just too honest and nice.
But lets not forget CD055-1. I miss hanging out with some of you guys... it's been awhile eh? But any meetings we have, coincidental though it be, is precious to me. And please. Don't make speculations just because i or JL don't join some of you in your camarederieoutings. In answer to your question (in which i believe i speak for more than the both of us)
1. Where's your shidio spirit?
My good fellow, from my pov it looks like 'shidio' has been boiled down to 'just-a-few-people-o' so i assume whatever spirit you're talking about only applies to those who are actually within said group.
2. But it's your fault, you never join us when we ask you to!
When have you ever asked us to? = )
3. Yes we did! That's what the class blog is for!
If you expect us to check on that half-dead blog on a constant basis, you're asking too much. By the time we get news, it's usually eons too late.
4....that's not an excuse.
dude, we have a different schedule and in general, a different life. I would love to make time for it, but you do realise i don't build my life around your events and most of the time I REALLY CANNOT MAKE IT COS I AM HALF-DEAD or have earlier commitments.
5. What about just joining us for lunch and stuff?
Oh sure. Why not? When do we ever have breaks that clash anyway. Oh wait, that was the main reason why.
6. You hate us, we know it. *sob*
I have more better things to do in life than to hate people who have done nothing to deserve my hate. You do think too highly of yourselves if that's your opinion.
7. what about shidio studios?
What ABOUT shidio studios? Considering you took the name shidio and plastered it there oh-so-big and never once mentioned who is who despite it being a company, i am safe to assume we are ALL a part of it? = ) Oh if you ever get into a big discussion about who is going to be its board of directors, i do suggest Crystal seeing she's about the only person who's actually into the idea in the first place. So, board of directors= Crystal. Yeah, seems that way. Oh, me? Just remember to put my name in little letters somewhere readable that says: name of company, copyrighted to Kagetaka, pls do not steal. Considering it has ALREADY been stolen by this company.
8. You don't even bother to keep track of us.
Are you kidding? I know more about what's going on amongst you than you yourselves know. Mouths speak for they know no secret in silence. just because we dont see you often doesn't mean we don't know what's going on. And frankly, i am disgusted at whats going on. But it makes really good fodder for gossip. Do you see the love and enmity triangles and quadrangles building up among you? Its so amazing its like watching a movie. Or a self destructing plushie. Face it, we all know whats happening internally. Do you want to acknowledge it or not is all.
My, my. This HAS become a rant.
I wonder when someone is actually going to read this and then start bombarding me with accusatory looks and hurt expressions. Of course, i'll always be the one to be blamed for not making enough effort, huh? Who am i to talk against a group of elitist dudes who only wants to spread the friendship and love. (do you hear my sarcasm?) but don't worry, i'm not verbally abusing all of you. Just those deluded... DELUDED (in caps because this is so important) with the idea that CD055-1 is compulsorily and naturally, a unit and a whole. Dream on, dream on. Do you not realise its the consequence of your own hypocritical nature that we aren't as you expect? You have hurt more people than you will ever realise because you are too blind to see it.
In summary LAY OFF US. STOP MAKING ASSUMPTIONS ABOUT US. AND ACTUALLY LIVE UP TO YOUR WORDS. i do sound like a bitter old lady don't i? actually this is a load of stuff i have wanted to get off my back for a long long time. I have kept quiet cos i know saying it out will cause problems. But let it not cause problems ok? Your opinion of me will surely change, but my opinions of you remain the same. Prove me wrong? Solve yourselves before you attempt that. Or you can just ignore all this, pretend you never read it and go on dreaming. But i tell you someday reality is going to pull your big head out of the clouds and smash it to the ground until you bleed. How do i know this? i've been there.
Dont bother to comment. i've heard all your excuses already anyway.
*inhales* this place smells as musty and abandoned as i thought.
Well i know i said i would never update anymore but here i am, totally bored out of my wits and needing to rant. Or ruminate, actually.
It's been almost 2 years of The One Academy life. Well, actually, it's more like taken AWAY any semblance of life i have. Everyday is monotonous, consisting of assignments and procrastinating said assignments. This term seems far more stressful than any other and i'm already dying despite it being only my second week. I don't know if the rest of you feel as i do, maybe you guys are having SO MUCH FUN in your major *snigger*
I find my life OUTSIDE of college (oh wait, didn't i just say i didn't have one? lol) to be SO much more exciting and fun. Honestly, if not for my involvement in Comic Fiesta, outings with friends, family time, INTERNET and utterly spontaneous outings with Jia Ling, i really would have no life, and become a TOA zombie (like *some* people i know)
You know... i love my class. I love them to bits. At the beginning i was extremely apprehensive about this small class full of mandarin speaking, non-KL people. But after half a year with them, i feel they're the best classmates anyone can have. It's not like i know them very well, in fact i know them even less than i know most CD055-1 students. But gads, these people are the nicest most amiable dudes you can find on the planet. Our relationship is as platonic as i like it, good enough to have a good laugh and a drink, but not too deep that DRAMA and EMO and BACKSTABBING problems happen *hinthint* in fact, i don't think they're even capable of backstabbing. They're just too honest and nice.
But lets not forget CD055-1. I miss hanging out with some of you guys... it's been awhile eh? But any meetings we have, coincidental though it be, is precious to me. And please. Don't make speculations just because i or JL don't join some of you in your camarederieoutings. In answer to your question (in which i believe i speak for more than the both of us)
1. Where's your shidio spirit?
My good fellow, from my pov it looks like 'shidio' has been boiled down to 'just-a-few-people-o' so i assume whatever spirit you're talking about only applies to those who are actually within said group.
2. But it's your fault, you never join us when we ask you to!
When have you ever asked us to? = )
3. Yes we did! That's what the class blog is for!
If you expect us to check on that half-dead blog on a constant basis, you're asking too much. By the time we get news, it's usually eons too late.
4....that's not an excuse.
dude, we have a different schedule and in general, a different life. I would love to make time for it, but you do realise i don't build my life around your events and most of the time I REALLY CANNOT MAKE IT COS I AM HALF-DEAD or have earlier commitments.
5. What about just joining us for lunch and stuff?
Oh sure. Why not? When do we ever have breaks that clash anyway. Oh wait, that was the main reason why.
6. You hate us, we know it. *sob*
I have more better things to do in life than to hate people who have done nothing to deserve my hate. You do think too highly of yourselves if that's your opinion.
7. what about shidio studios?
What ABOUT shidio studios? Considering you took the name shidio and plastered it there oh-so-big and never once mentioned who is who despite it being a company, i am safe to assume we are ALL a part of it? = ) Oh if you ever get into a big discussion about who is going to be its board of directors, i do suggest Crystal seeing she's about the only person who's actually into the idea in the first place. So, board of directors= Crystal. Yeah, seems that way. Oh, me? Just remember to put my name in little letters somewhere readable that says: name of company, copyrighted to Kagetaka, pls do not steal. Considering it has ALREADY been stolen by this company.
8. You don't even bother to keep track of us.
Are you kidding? I know more about what's going on amongst you than you yourselves know. Mouths speak for they know no secret in silence. just because we dont see you often doesn't mean we don't know what's going on. And frankly, i am disgusted at whats going on. But it makes really good fodder for gossip. Do you see the love and enmity triangles and quadrangles building up among you? Its so amazing its like watching a movie. Or a self destructing plushie. Face it, we all know whats happening internally. Do you want to acknowledge it or not is all.
My, my. This HAS become a rant.
I wonder when someone is actually going to read this and then start bombarding me with accusatory looks and hurt expressions. Of course, i'll always be the one to be blamed for not making enough effort, huh? Who am i to talk against a group of elitist dudes who only wants to spread the friendship and love. (do you hear my sarcasm?) but don't worry, i'm not verbally abusing all of you. Just those deluded... DELUDED (in caps because this is so important) with the idea that CD055-1 is compulsorily and naturally, a unit and a whole. Dream on, dream on. Do you not realise its the consequence of your own hypocritical nature that we aren't as you expect? You have hurt more people than you will ever realise because you are too blind to see it.
In summary LAY OFF US. STOP MAKING ASSUMPTIONS ABOUT US. AND ACTUALLY LIVE UP TO YOUR WORDS. i do sound like a bitter old lady don't i? actually this is a load of stuff i have wanted to get off my back for a long long time. I have kept quiet cos i know saying it out will cause problems. But let it not cause problems ok? Your opinion of me will surely change, but my opinions of you remain the same. Prove me wrong? Solve yourselves before you attempt that. Or you can just ignore all this, pretend you never read it and go on dreaming. But i tell you someday reality is going to pull your big head out of the clouds and smash it to the ground until you bleed. How do i know this? i've been there.
Dont bother to comment. i've heard all your excuses already anyway.
posted by ominous87 at 9:17 AM
9 Comments:
erm... am i allowed to comment? well, since i've put on a thick-skin to start typing here, i might as well.
i dunno what has happened. i was very happy to actually see a new post here. but as i read on, i realized i was obviously very ignorant. sorry, i was one of those who thought that jia ling and you were putting a distance. *digs a big big hole to hide in*
i do miss the whole big shidio bunch. and you are right, Shidio Fai Fai Wan originates from Kagetaka. We were so excited about it in first year because it was really cool that we decided we would be Shidio. We are a part of it. It started off as a dream, but i know it'll probably be tucked away if no real effort is done. I dunno how to put this, and i definitely do not want fake anything. But it struck me deeply that you said it was ALREADY been stolen by this company.
I dunno if anything can be done after all these. There's sarcasm all over the last half of the post. Or maybe it's just me.
Aih, I feel very bad now. So much for being 'thick-skinned'...sighs
Assignments away. Ehehe.
Hah so someone does check back here.
As i said chrystal, it seems youre the only one serious about it and i do salute your effort.
despite being full of sarcasm, it rly was just meant to clear things up. By no means is it especially targetting anyone.
hehe thick skinned huh. i know some people who would be too afraid or ashamed to comment. I'm glad you did, at least you acknowledge it. and that's all we really wanted, you see.
Don't worry and don't mull over it. You have enough to worry abt what with the scholarship. Just remember what i wrote that left any impact on you, and keep in mind. I don't think any less of all of you as friends. (no sarcasm there i promise = ) )
I'm sure glad I came back to check on the blog. You don't have to worry too, I won't mull over it. At least, I know now. We are still friends what...*hugs*
Let's make the best out of college life. Eheheh. *cheers*
Whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...........
I really don't know where to start. But I won't make excuses. You're right for alot of things. This post has quite an impact, ya know. I just feel... like Chrystal... very bad right now.
cheh.. and i thought i would see a drama here after i saw 4 comments... looks like the popcorn and coke isn't able to serve their purpose...
oh well.....
'cd055-1' you idiot..
before i say anything else, i really want to say i'm sorry.
honestly and sincerely.
i'm definitely one of the people who has at times said/thought likewise about you and Jia Ling.
i admit that i can be prejudiced, or jump to conclusions,or just ignorantly prideful, and i can see now how it must have hurt you guys.
how shall i put this? i guess it wasn't an easy decision to make to join IL when the majority of us went in bulk to DG and AD. (unless you were that eager to get rid of us - lar)
what i want to say is, i applaud you for sticking to what you wanted, even though eventually you went thru a time like this.
and i'm really glad you have a great bunch of IL classmates to hang out with.
So friends again? :)
(i know that our friendship is so fragile it probably borders on the lines of acquaintances, but i'd like you to know, that whenever we chance to meet again and we have like a second to just say "hi!" it also meant "how are you doing?", "i hope you're having fun" and "do take care")
and if i get stuck up all over again, just smack me :)
...now i'm glad i made that post. Thank you all for understanding.
and yes, 'cd055-1' whoever you are, you're definitely of those people who are more than happy to see conflict among us.
Of course we're all friends, that was never a doubt. But i feel we can be truer friends (do forgive the cliche) if i get this off my back, y'know? I want to greet you all happily, without any doubt about how you may think of us. I can't begin to say how grateful i am now, to all of you...
so please, don't feel bad. *hugs* this is one hurdle we got over, right? Let's keep running forward together.
julianna> eager to get rid of you guys? thats ridiculous. I don't believe we bonded so little over the foundation year to be so cold.
I do admit we never got the chance to know you better. But friends again? NO WAY.. we never stopped being friends now did we? = ) Thanks Jules.. no you're not stuck up ^ ^;;
Thanks for being such a forgiving, forgetting friend.. :) i really really admire and appreciate that, girl..
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